December 2010
4 years ago, today.
it honestly doesn’t get any easier. I think about you everyday. I try and fight back my tears, I try to stay strong for my family, but sometimes I can’t. you are my inspiration for a lot of things I do. i promise i will never do anything to let you down. I miss you more than words could ever express and I love you soooo, sooooo much.
rip<3
love?
so I was looking at a friends pictures, seeing how happy this friend was with it’s significant other, not gonna lie, it kinda bummed me out. I’ve been waiting 17, almost 18, years to find THAT happiness. I want to find that guy that’s actually worth my time, well actually I don’t wanna find him, I want him to find me, and soon.
is that toooo much to ask for?!
peaceoutbirdie asked: LOVE YOU :D
run.
how many times do you set love free before you know it’s supposed to be? how long til you wait and see before you know to run to me?
and all your fears and all your doubts, I never came to bail you out, like every tear hits your shirt reminds you of the fireworks.
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cocamidopropylbetaine-deactivat asked: Kellsey. You make me smile :)
Anonymous asked: why are u such a bitch to everyone? WATCH YOUR FUCKIN ATTITUDE.
dream this town.
I’ve got bigger dreams than this town can take, I’ve got more love than my heart can fake.
I WONT give up, can’t just walk away.
I’m stronger than I seem and I refuse to be just another dream this town has lost at sea.
I'm lost without youu.
I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I’m lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I’m lost without you.
day ten.
somebody I’d like to meet:
hmm, I have a long list. hah.
definitely Swift, Lovato, Jonas, Lautner, Sulkin…. I could go on for days! haha
but honestly:
I want to meet THE boy. sweet. outgoing. romantic. spontaneous. responsible. respectful. FUNNY! goal oriented. treats me and my friends&family well. supportive. the one I can be a complete gooooooof with.
I mean, he’s...
can we pick up the pieces now?
we used to be such good friends.
now it’s like were distant strangers.
from telling eachother everything
to telling eachother nothing.
the one I used to tell all my problems to.
now I just keep it to myself.
the one that could actually tell when something was wrong, even the slightest problem.
now only I can tell.
I know it never will get back to the way it was before, but I can wish...
day nine.
one goal or wish;
my goal is to never give up and accomplish what I have my mind set on.
my wish is that I do succeed in what I wanna do.
if this was a movie.
Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
Six months gone and I’m still reaching
Even though I know you’re not there
I was playing back a thousand memories baby
Thinkin bout everything we’ve been through
Maybe i’ve been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you
come back to me like
you would if this was a movie...
Anonymous asked: why are u such a bitch to everyone? WATCH YOUR FUCKIN ATTITUDE.
innocent love.
you are the sickness for which there is no cure im tryin’ to make sense of whats happening here. see my face in the pillow trying to not scream. my hearts in my ears and im listening. so tell me what happened to our innocent love. what ever happened to check yes or no, or notes under yourdesk, or tossing pebbles at your window? what happened to the time when the guy would ask the girl, she...
boy+girl=friendship.
so, I was watching laguna beach and I realized that I want a guy best friend. I mean don’t get me wrong, Eddie does a fabulous job from where he is, but I need one around me. I want the kind of friendship Lauren&Stephen have o the show. the one where they’re ALWAYS there for eachother. ALWAYS hanging with eachother. honestly, watch an episode and you’ll know what I mean, cuz...
day eight.
something that upsets me:
-the whole situation with my sisters.
-seeing my mom and or dad upset or knowing they are… that’s what killlls me most!
-knowing that I’m not that good of friends with a certain person.
day seven.
favorite summer night in 2010.
shooot, there’s soooooo many.
I’d have to say any night that was spent with my friends.
alone in the world.
feeling like you’re alone in the world sucks.
there’s a bajillion of people I this world and I feel like I have no one. not one single person as a friend.
it sucks.
I guess it’s time to learn how to stand on my own?
get me outttaaa here.
it’s clear I don’t belong here.
I can’t stand I here.
this city just isn’t right for me.
my mind is still set on tennessee, buuut I don’t know if I’d be able to leave the beach, it’s my great escape.
but if I honestly had the opportunity to just leave murrieta right now, I would.
I definitely feel like I don’t belong here.
I have no one here anyway,...
friends?
yeahhh, I have noneee.
day six.
a favorite memory a crush has given me.
probably would have to be the weekend we actually met. that was waaayyy too much fun, non stop laughs:]
and also that week when we established our feelings. and things were just going great at the time and all we did was talk allll day, everyday… you made me happy&smile, there’s nothing more to it.
there’s a million memories I will...
crap.
I miss you:/
this isn’t good… at alll!
day five.
the best gift I’ve recieved:
the gift of life. I’m soo thankful for each and every day I have been given and the ones to come. I’m lucky to believe and cherish each and every day.
emileighmaelynn:
it’s hard to be happy for someone when you want to be happy with them. <3
day cuatrooo.
Something that I look forward to doing/getting:
there’s a lot I look forward to, like:
acting.
my future.
graduating.
falling in love.
watching my little sister and brothers grow up.
spending time with the love ones.
to help make a difference some how.
and soooo much moreeee.
when&wonder.
its one of the nights when everything just bothers me.
when I think about too much.
when I over analyze certain situations.
yeah, I realize sooo much.
but at the same time, I’m left wondering.
like i wonder how my future will unfold.
I wonder and I pray for my family to get glued back together.
I wonder if financial situations will get easier.
I wonder how different life will be once June...
day threee.
a posession that means a lot to me:
wellll, I’m gonna pick 2… haha.
my stuffed animal thing I’ve had since I was like 5, I looveee it<3
my iPod. it’s my life. I don’t know what I’d do without it considering I can’t go five minutes without music. haha.
feelin' like
I’ll never be good enough
:/
it's my job.
after spending my night talking to a friend, i realized it’s my job to be there for my friends. to listen to what they have to say. and help heal their wounds. or just simply laugh with them. and enjoy all the little things life is bringing us. I’ve always been one to put my friends before I would ever put myself, but after this talk tonight, I know it’s what I’m suppose to...
day two.
one girl that means a lot to me (&i’m explaining why):
Bailey Rae Iverson.
my best friend since like 2nd grade. she moved away from me to Texas in the 6th grade. after about 3years of noooo communication, we reunited over the phone. and since shes mived, ive only seen her onceee:/ it means sooo much to me to have her as a friend and know that I can still talk to her about anything....
wooow.
I was just thinking.
and I realllllly do love yoooou<3
ughh, why can’t this sitch be easierrr?
just know you have half of my heart.
man I wonder what will happen to it when we unite.
dayone.
one guy that means a lot to me(&i’m gonna explain):
Edward Laurence Crochet.
my BEST friend. this kid lives in Texas and he honestly is the bestest friend a girl could EVEERRR ask for. I love our conversations, even if they’re short and pointlesss. we can tell eachother everrythiinnggg.
he’s always there for me and it means the world to me. I don’t think I’ve...
whhhhy not.
DAY 01 - One guy who means alot to you. DAY 02 - One girl who means alot to you. DAY 03 - A possession that means alot to you. DAY 04 - Something that you look forward to doing/getting. DAY 05 - The best gift you’ve received. DAY 06 - Your favorite memory that a crush has given you. DAY 07 - Your favorite summer night in 2010. DAY 08 - Something that upsets you. DAY 09 - One goal or wish. DAY 10 -...
“if I had a dime for every apology that was never said, Id be a rich man.”
– nevershoutnever
all I want is to be happy.
is that too much to ask for?
1 tag
as of right now.
I have waaaay toooo much on my mind.
1. I know I’ve mentioned this like 5million times, but I’m ready to leave this town. I’m beyond over it and everyone here.
2. I feel like I’m constantly being put down. I mean, yeah I have the fire in me to never give up, but when people constantly are telling me to give up or that I’ll never make it, it all builds up and catches...
why.
I should have known this wasn’t real.
why do you do this to me? why do you do this so easily? you make it hard to smile because you make it hard to breathe why do you do this to me?
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who am I?
I’ve done a lot of thinking lately.
I’m trying to figure out the person I want to be. I’m happy with the way I am now, but I feel like there’s still a chunk of me missing. and I need to find out what I’m gonna do in my future. I know what I want to do and what I’m praying to be might not necessarily work out:/
I’m hoping by the end of this weekend I can...
I wish.
I lived at/by the beach.
I love just sitting there and thinking.
and I definitely need to do that right now.
:/